Wednesday, March 29, 2006

this is the first time in my life im feeling so utterly desperate and helpless. NO, im definitely not cut out to be in the teaching line.

i tried you know, i really did. I typed my own History notes for the students, i came up with my own summary and W/S for them.. what did they do? HELL, they threw my notes in the bin. any normal person will jsut feel super upset. that's the last straw. I really dun wan to have to cry and break down in class. i learnt that it was a big no-no and a sign of weakness. all these.. and im just a relief. someone who just takes 65 dollars a day. just a 19 year old who has no obligations to be taking such nonsense from anyone! im doing more than my fair share of work. and i amd just so unappreciated. thanks. really thanks..

what do they want? is it because im just a relief? someone who do not command authority? is it because of my age that they do not take me seriously? is it because im too friendly with the students such that they take advantage of me? what the hell is it?

i cant take it much longer. mum told me to quit if i really cant take it. i really need the BK trip. im super drained.
my mood has been going up and down, affecting those around me. i hate it.i dun want to be the whiny and unreasonable person i am when im moody. i dun wan to give added stress to people i care about..

i need to do some soul searching and calm down. i only pray for the best.

wishing;
3/29/2006 07:48:00 PM

*dilys and clara
*deecla
*19
*Blah blah blah...

Stars of my life
::manling::
::shuyi::
::sharon::
::eUg::
::sompong::
::bimbotic ler!::
::yings!::
::pui kor::
::lanbo::
::nana!::
::mad!::
::bong!::
::wuuu hui!::
::siyin!::
::diL aka dee::
::tsai hsiu::

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Searching for a glimmer of hope

To My friends who are... engaged
~the true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together
but how good you are for each other~

To My friends who are... still holding on
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone in life and fall in love
only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be
and you have wasted years on someone who wasnt worth it.
If he isnt worth it now
he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now
Let go~

To My friends who are... heartbroken
~Heartbreak last as long as you want
and cut as deep as you allow them to go
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreak
but to learn from them